May is Mental Health Awareness month so what better way to commemorate it than with a mental health post. I wrote this early this morning
It is currently 1:38am. I’ve been trying to fall asleep since 9pm. I try to have a night routine and stick to it, but when you have mental disorders there are some things that you just can’t control like racing thoughts. My mind is racing with any and everything. Nothing important, nothing that matters, just chaos. My medicine that I take for my bipolar disorder is supposed to calm my mind so that I can sleep but when you have mental disorders sometimes even the medicine doesn’t work. And when the medicine doesn’t work, you’re at the mercy of your mind. I try to spend time with God when I cant sleep but a lot of the times when my mind is racing, even my prayers are interrupted by the random thoughts. I have a full day ahead of me tomorrow so even if I get no sleep, I still have to show up for my responsibilities. They say when your mind is racing you should write things down but as I stated there’s nothing important running through my head. Oh bipolar disorder I really dislike you right now.