11 Sep

I want to talk about yesterday. First of all, I have a contract with Aafes!!! God really is the GOAT and… I’ve found my people! I had a conversation about mental health with everyone I met yesterday. The lady who helped me throughout the day bought my book and started reading it right away. She told me she likes it so far and she likes that I gave her a backstory. I won’t lie, that instant gratification felt so good. Not being cocky but I know it’s a good book because it’s full of drama. People love drama. But it makes me smile whenever I get feedback from my book. I’m like Erykah, I’m an artist and I’m sensitive about my shit. I sold books to soldiers, a therapist and chaplain, two authors, Veterans, and civilians, it was great. I love how open the military is to mental health. They’re not afraid to tell you their stories and I love that. I don’t know why as a society we still associate a stigma when people talk about mental health like it's an STD or something. Mental health doesn’t discriminate. It doesn’t care who you are. You can be a full bird colonel and have mental disorders. That goes back to when I said people with mental disorders are the strongest people because we fight our internal battles and still show up in life, every damn day. Even on our worst days, we still show up. I’m not asking for mental illness to be celebrated, I just want the stigma removed. Having a mental disorder is no different than any other illness, you learn how to manage it and you continue living. Having mental disorders isn’t something I asked for, I was born with them and I believe I manage my mental health very well. I had a moment in August but I quickly got over that. I’m happy again and just seeing how God keeps blessing me, how could I be depressed or have anxiety? I’m taking care of my body again and I love yoga. Now that I’m in a routine, my insomnia has gone away. I’m in a good place mentally, physically, spiritually and financially. God is good, God is great. God loves me and I love him too. I’m so blessed and God is the GOAT!